In these challenging times where we are being forced to face the underbelly of humanity and the epicenter of evil, we may feel triggered and thrown into feelings of shame and low self-worth. As the old biblical saying goes, “it’s darkest before the dawn.” All this shame is coming up to be cleared so we can get on with the vibrancy of being alive. In my lifetime I have never seen things so bleak, but a new dawn of light is coming. All we need is to do is hold on, not pick up our addictions of choice and keep our eyes
always on the light. It’s a discipline to keep trucking and not become bitter.

Recently I remembered how shame is transmuted. I was in a class and was terrified and exhilarated by the task ahead of me. Lately I had been finding myself hiding behind old walls of “protection” and listening to the wrong internal voices. A friend told me “imbalance teaches balance” and I knew that was true. My job for the class was to make a presentation. The class before this one didn’t go as well as I wanted so I was a bit thrown off. I knew I needed to slay the fear and get right back on the horse, but I was tired. Sometimes exhaustion is a subtle form of denial. I watched one guy in the class do his piece facing the rage that he was terrified of owning and that gave me the “inspiration” to get up there. To complete this assignment, I was going to have to face my inner critic head on. In a sense this young guy breathed his breath into me (metaphorically of course) and his courage gave me the fire to do what I needed to do. As the alchemist did by turning silver into gold I knew I had to dive through the shame and the scene started. I could feel the old program rewinding. It was a trip. The tapes from dysfunctional families say hide yourself, protect yourself or you could get hurt and those are the myths and lies of the ego. But the heart tells us to be unabashedly who you are and remain open to life. Have the courage to do the things you love and the things you are afraid in the spirit of play is the “work”. That night I remembered that recovery is about having fun and slaying the fears that disguise themselves as dragons but are ancient cockroaches that come from the family legacies of secrecy. So, my offering to you is to open the windows of who you are, let the light enter those hidden dark places and celebrate your’ beautiful unique self. By doing this again and again we get stronger, the voice of the inner critic loses power and the light on our magnificent planet grows.

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Give yourself the greatest gift of your life and get on the Path to Freedom.
You are loved and you are love.
It’s funny by loving ourselves and extending in love, love returns to us in waves.
You are never alone.