Nearly 3 months ago I was in a horrible accident and my face was smashed beyond recognition. Now I am a vain girl, and this was a hard blow. I heard this voice that told me, “Your face will come back as it was” and I believed it would. So, I proceeded with a positive attitude and trudged forward. The outpouring of love was mind blowing. My best friend and the woman who has become my mother showed up at the trauma unit and held my hand. Friends and even my hairdresser sent food and support. The generosity was beyond my wildest dreams. The damage was “as bad as getting shot” the doctor told me when he finally showed up that night. Though I cried, I knew it would all be okay and after a 5-hour operation the next day I was sent home.
I felt there was a big lesson to learn, and it was important I get it because the next time would be worse. I had to dig into some nasty belief systems that were imbedded in my family particularly about not getting what I want. This was a hard pill to swallow but I have learned the only way out is through. I would have to change my thoughts and many of my actions and base them in self-love. A month later, I took myself to the mountains and read a book I had studied at the beginning of this amazing uncharted spiritual path I have been on since college. The writing was based on the Oxford Group practices which was where Bill Wilson went to get sober and gleaned the foundation of the 12 steps and AA. What struck me was a prayer and meditation practice they did every morning.
The suggestion was to first sit in quiet mediation and then get a journal and ask one question. If there is some problem or concern, you may be having ask for clarification. Begin the writing session with a statement like “Dear Universe, Dear Christ, Buddha or whoever you pray to” and then ask the question. What the Oxford Group says is read back you’re writing and make sure that it is “kind, honest, pure and loving”. If not, it’s not from your higher power. This morning routine has really opened me up to a feeling of peace and has allowed light into many parts of my life that I couldn’t get to. It has brought me back to deep prayer and meditation. The morning writing sessions have transformed into other forms of connection with my higher power, and you will find yours.
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Love and Light from the PTF.
